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Overwhelmed and Inadequate: Authentic Rebel Community Journal Entry



Date: August 5, 2023


Location: My Quiet Sanctuary


Mood: Overwhelmed and Inadequate


Dear Journal,


Today, the weight of my own self-doubt feels crushing. I can't escape this relentless feeling of being fat and utterly inadequate. It's as if every mirror I pass, every reflection I catch, is a cruel reminder of my perceived flaws.


I can't help but compare myself to the images of perfection society bombards us with. Those flawless bodies, airbrushed and photo-edited, make me feel like I'm light years away from what's considered "ideal."


I find myself obsessing over every inch, every curve, as if they are the measure of my worth.


Why is it so hard to embrace my body for what it is, to see beauty beyond the shallow standards that surround us? I know I should love myself, accept myself and be confident in my skin, but those words seem like distant, unattainable goals.


Today, getting dressed was a battle. Every outfit I tried on felt like a costume, a disguise I used to hide my insecurities. I tugged at my clothes, trying to conceal the parts of me I can't stand. It's exhausting, this constant fight against my own body.


I wish I could look in the mirror and see something other than imperfections. I wish I could silence that critical voice in my head, the one that tells me I'll never be good enough.


But today, it's louder than ever, drowning out any trace of self-compassion.

I know I'm not alone in feeling this way and that's what hurts the most.


So many of us carry these burdens of self-doubt, believing we're not worthy because we don't meet some arbitrary standard. It's a cruel irony that we're often our own harshest critics.


As I pour my thoughts onto these pages, I hope that someday I'll find the strength to silence those cruel voices, to embrace my body and my worth as they are and to understand that beauty comes in many forms.


For now, though, I'm left with this heavy heart, longing for a moment of respite from the torment of feeling fat and inadequate.


Yours in the depths of self-doubt,


Ari

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Jen Engevik
Jen Engevik
Aug 24, 2023

Ari, thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts with us. Self-doubt is definitely a part of being human. Don't be too hard on yourself… your words mean so much to this community ❤️

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